I can’t believe how fast the weekend and today got away from me. With it speeding by so quickly, I missed posting my Sunday blog. I apologize for missing yesterday’s timeline.
This past week was a bit emotional in a few different ways. First, in class, we are working on creative non-fiction writing. This, for me, means digging up and reflecting. Which, for the most part, wouldn’t be so bad, but when I was trying to decide on what to write about, I began rehashing things I don’t care to think about for long periods of time. When trying to write your story, it takes a little longer and requires going a little deeper than some might want. Remembering how fate/God/Angels/whatever has stepped in to help or save me is humbling. I have had a bit more happen in my life than I’d like to admit or think about, but I always come out okay. It may not seem like it at the time, but once through it, and I look at everything… Yeah, I’m good. At times, I’ve even felt kind of blessed. Trying to write about it brings it up and some things almost seem unreal, even though I know they are. Writing this homework lesson has been harder than expected, but it’s also pushing against my norm. I prefer to make up my stories and sprinkle a little bit of reality in there, not write reality and find a creative way to express it while maintaining the truth. Eye-opening lesson and a tinge emotional.
What else has been emotional this past week? Missing my Axel. I’ve had several “cry times” because of missing my Axel. I still have his bed between the dining room and the living room, which is where he would lay so he could see me. The other night while drawing, I just happened to look up in that direction almost expecting to see his big brown eyes staring back at me, but it was only his empty bed. Like right now, as I write this, the tears begin. The pressure forms in my chest, and tears flow. This has happened several times lately, or I’ll be sitting at my computer in the kitchen, and I can still smell him. He used to like to lay at my feet, and after coming in from outside, he would have a “dog” smell.
Lastly, a friend was asking me about the dogs, and she didn’t know about Axel. I tried to tell her but couldn’t get through it without crying, so I suggested she read my blog tribute to him. That way, she wouldn’t have to hear me crying through the recount.
I can’t say it enough, but I miss that big brat. Yes, he was my big brat, and I loved him to pieces. I even miss his whining (a little) when he couldn’t see me or thought I was out of his view for too long and would do his blood-curdling whines to get my attention. It worked. He had me wrapped around his paw.
Anyhow, I’m having a hard time seeing through the tears right now, so I’ll keep this short. Plus, with it being Thanksgiving week, I’m sure you all are busy getting things wrapped up at work, school, or getting the preparations ready. I know I am… On a funny note, I almost forgot to order everything I need for this week. Luckily, the only thing I couldn’t get was the acorn squash, but I did get a replacement. I’ll let you know on Sunday if the alternate squash worked out or not.
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving week and remember to be grateful throughout.
My sweetheart and I do a nightly grateful routine where we tell each other one thing we love about the other, one thing we apologize for (can be directed to anyone/anything/or ourselves too), one thing we accomplished that day, and then six things we are grateful for.
What is one thing you are grateful for today? Tomorrow? And each day? I’d love to hear some of yours, so please share if you like.
One thing I’m grateful for is the unconditional love given so freely from our fur babies. It’s innocent, pure, and often comforting.
With that, I am sending out love, laughter, hugs, and blessings to each of you.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!🦃 Save a turkey and eat tofu (or fish).🌻
We are Creatively Unlimited! 
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