Running on Empty, Fuzzy Brain in Tow, but Still Moving Forward🪫

Hello and Happy Sunday!

I’m so glad Sunday is here, even if I do seem to be in a tad bit of a grumpy mood — only a teeny tiny hint of one though.

Any who, yesterday I gave my speech on suicide, and it went well even though I was up until 2:00 a.m. the night before trying to put it together. Then I was up at 5-ish to make sure I was ready to leave when my Sweetheart was ready to go. He is the Sgt. of Arms, so he’s the one who sets everything up and has it ready for members when they arrive.

With all that, I ended up getting only 2½ hours of sleep, which is not a good thing. If you’ve ever done this, you may or may not have experienced the same things I do (fuzzy brain, headaches with a little chest discomfort, and completely drained energy), but I would bet you felt something and were probably off for the rest of the day.

Well, I definitely was. I had someone record my speech because I knew I was not going to remember anything I’d attempted to write. Shoot, I didn’t even have my slide presentation set up correctly.

But all in all, it went okay. Even though I have yet to watch the video, I did get some good feedback from members and guests. My evaluator said that after I tweak it, I definitely should give this speech again and again.

I’m not sure this is something I want to keep bringing up, but if I am asked to give the speech somewhere, I will.

But… I was so drained when we got home that I took a two-to-three-hour nap (gotta love naps — always have). Between the lack of sleep, the emotional drain from the speech, and being around people, I was worn out. We still managed to play ESO (Elder Scrolls Online) with my sister and her husband, but I could feel myself fading even during the game. My poor character died way more than she would have if my reflexes were well rested.

All of this is why I’m glad it’s Sunday. Even though I went to sleep at 2:30 a.m., I didn’t officially get up until 10:30 a.m. I say “officially” because I was up around three times to visit the little ladies’ room.

Now I’m working on completing my daily and weekly goals, then revisiting my monthly and quarterly goals to make sure I’m on track.

Next week is going to be busy… first, of course, there are the daily goals to complete: exercise (I’ve been going to the gym), working on my next novel, art projects, physical therapy/doctor’s appointments, my ACA meeting (I went to one and I think I like it — my parents weren’t alcoholics, but it was definitely a dysfunctionally f’d-up family… more about that another time), and trying to get the house ready for visitors. My Sweetheart’s mother will be staying with us while his family visits from out of state, so I want to make sure the house is clean and presentable. Not to mention getting the dogs cleaned up, which I will definitely need — or at least want — help with.

All that while also preparing for a medical procedure and a trip.

I will be taking a lot of deep breaths and telling myself, You got this! (Or faking it till I get most of it done.)

Well, I’m going to sign off here and look at my upcoming week on my calendar to see what I can schedule when and where. So, until next time…

Have a great week, and may it be filled with hugs, love, laughter, and blessings.

Later…🥰