Currently, it is 1:25 a.m., I have an audiobook going, just finished washing the recyclables, starting the dish washer, and am finally starting to feel sleepy. I do have to apologize for missing my post yesterday. I’m sure I will head to bed before I finished writing this, but I will publish it.
This has been an emotional week wrapped up in my big baby, Axel. He has gone several meals without eating or has eaten and then thrown it up. I’ve made him hamburger and eggs, bought various types of dog food like Fresh Pet – anything that I think he might like. I’ve have been hand feeding him, trying to get him to think that whatever I was feeding him was possibly people food. But unfortunately, even if he does eat, he often throws it up. I have hopefully found something he can eat and keep down and that is rice and chicken. I had hand feed him but with the new combo and I was able to just put his bowl down. I’m feeding him small meals a few times a day and ordered an appetite stimulant (which hasn’t arrived yet). Fingers crossed I am buying him and honestly myself a little more time.
The thought of losing another fur baby automatically brings tears to my eyes. When I think of my Kasey (my Maltese that passed a few years ago), it only takes a few moments of thinking of her, and I am a blubbering idiot. I’ve already cried over the upcoming passing of Axel, so buying a little more time – well, he’s not in pain that we know of. The vet doesn’t seem to think so either. Currently Axel is curled up in his bed like a little puppy.
You know what’s really heartbreaking is that all five of our dogs are seniors. Lexi, Maltipoo, is around 16+, Tex, Schnauzer/Shepherd, is around 14+, Axel and Anna Mae are around 13, and Dobby, the baby, is approximately 11. All of them are showing the signs of aging, but with Axel being the largest (Staff/Lab mix) at his healthy weight of 90 pounds, I have been told has lived longer than dogs his age and size. He is no longer 90 pounds; he is closer to 80, maybe even less. So yes, I am doing my best to extend his short life just a little longer. Good night for now – or should I say good morning?
Good morning again!
I had a restless sleep dreaming of the game we played last night, mixed with a collage of other things rolling around in my head. I finally fell asleep sometime after 3:00 a.m., and only after finally taking some Z-Quill sleep aid. I don’t like taking sleep help but if restless legs or too much of an active brain keep me up, then I will take the help. Anyhow, I’m not feeling up to par, so I won’t be going to class today. After I finish writing this, I think I will be taking a nap, a long nap.
Axel refused to eat this morning, even though I fixed him the chicken and rice and tried to hand feed him. He ate one piece of chicken, and that was it. As I sit at the table and write this, he either lays next to me or wants to be going in and out. He seems to want to eat but noting appeals to him. That I can understand – been there, done that – but I end up eating anyway (as my now being overweight can show, not just from a low active thyroid).
Today I will just allow Axel and myself to just “Be”. No expectations, no trying to make him eat, no getting upset by me, and just resting. I’ll do my daily goals and well, naps. I may walk, I may not; today is a “rest” day.
I’ll end for now and wish you all a wonderful week filled with love, laughter, hugs, and blessings. 🌺
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