Changes

Changes come about as we go through life. We grow up and move from one phase of life to another. There are changes that we choose and some that, well come out of nowhere. Whether they are forced upon us or they slip through the cracks of our fortress. Changes that we did not choose, seem to throw us for a loop. How big of a loop it is, that is up to us. Recently I resigned from my place of employment where I had been for over four years. I had enjoyed my job and was comfortable there. I had decided that I would stay there until I either graduated college and was making money doing what I loved, won a huge lottery, was gifted with an amazing work from home (or extremely near the house) job, or I was let go. Never did I think that I would feel the need to resign due to a hostile work environment. But I did. I won’t go into details, but in a matter of a few days I personally dealt with the hostility of one main person that I had respected since starting my position at the company. I allowed myself to feel intimidated, scared, unnerved and defeated. The thought of going back to that place and facing this person, seriously made me sick in my stomach. I had given my power away. I allowed this person to say things to me that I know/knew were wrong. Yet, I wasn’t able to speak up for myself. I semi-shut down. Wow, I thought I was stronger than that. Unfortunately, memories were brought up from my childhood, which triggered my reverting to a scared little girl. After thinking about things for a few days, I decided to take my power back and I resigned. You may ask how does resigning take your power back? Had I gone in on the day I was told I could come back, I would have given this person the opportunity to do it all over again, plus fire me. I love me enough to protect me from such abuse. I deprived him of trying to steal my choice and being insulted again. This person has deep issues, which are beginning to surface and show up more often since he is stressed. That does not give him the right to treat people the way he has been over the last six months to a year. But he does it anyway.

Where does Change come in? This change slipped past my supposedly strong fortress walls. Temporary loss of power has helped me see that I am strong enough to get up and regain my footing. Resigning put things back in my hands and now I am on a new path to a wonderful new journey.

How do you view change? Is a positive or a negative? Is the negative a learning lesson or do you allow it to swallow you whole and consume you? Think about your changes and I hope you see the lessons and turn any seemingly negative into a positive.

Recently a friend reminded me that if we did not have “Change” there would be no Butterflies. Personally, I love Butterflies and now I am one.